Shmattlock

Spring Break

Shmattlock — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 06:32:14 +0000

WHOOOHOOOOO hahahahah i’m on spring break. i’ll be in the capital city area for a few days, tues-thurs. it’s been quite a while. don’t know if people still use these or not for the friends i have. if so HI!!

Eric is right

Shmattlock — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:08:21 +0000

I haven’t posted in this in a very long time. .. although i don’t really know what to say. I’ve never been good at this. This semester is coming to a close. this will be a very busy next 2 weeks.
I can’t wait for Christmas break. I’m hoping to get some time off work to I can see family and such i haven’t seen in a long time.

Anyway, i’ll field questions or thoughts to help me get back into writing here if you’re willing to help

Frighteningly Fruitful

Shmattlock — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 22:02:42 +0000

This new thing going on with me isn’t a change in what i want to do professionally or anything like that. This is more of a re-prioritizing and a re-focusing of those things that are personal in my life. I’ve gone a long way since coming to EMU, a lot of which in the direction that I would have preferred not to go. This is more about what I’m looking for, how I’m looking for it and what I’m doing with what I have.

Good Conversation.

Shmattlock — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 06:30:11 +0000

I just had a good conversation with a great friend that I care for dearly. I just wanted to start off with this, Thank you again so much.

I wrote a song in class today, but it now means nothing to me now. Over the course of about an hour, it was moved to meaningless basket. (this wasn’t a song for class, just bored during music history so I decided to write)

It’s very late. I was/am just too moved not to say something. I will be back for more Very soon.
What a wonderful night.

McCullen’s US History, 10th grade

Shmattlock — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 05:27:58 +0000

In 3m 1s

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Auto Show 2008

Shmattlock — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 00:00:47 +0000

I love cars.

You Have My Attention

Shmattlock — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 06:24:42 +0000

The things worth having are usually harder to get.

I sure can smell the rain

Shmattlock — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 07:28:16 +0000

It’s another one of those times.. Oh you know; when I come back to this blog here and want to spill my heart just to get it out because I just can’t hold it in anymore. It’s just too much to bear.
It’s such an alone time when it gets like this because no one really knows what is going on with me entirely. That’s my fault i know.

i’m tired of being awkward and i hate it when you call me out.

The last sunset we’ll ever see

Shmattlock — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 06:03:22 +0000

“I’m tired of being afraid of what I can’t change. I want to be living free.”

I have a feeling this is going to be another one of those cliche posts where i say a ton of crap but it doesn’t make sense at all because you won’t know what i’m talking about.. but i’ll try.. maybe
I think this is going to be a reminder to stop thinking so much and just let my heart lead my life and where it takes me and to stop over thinking/analyzing things and such.
Look around, why shouldn’t i be so much happier than i am?
Note to self: Find beauty in the small things. my life is beautiful.

don’t mess it up by thinking too much.

That was a river, this is the ocean

Shmattlock — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 05:04:38 +0000

So less vagueness and more honesty huh? well here ya go.
i don’t like being alone.
And no, i’m not talking about a girlfriend type relationship either. just having that someone close where i can just let go of everything that i build up inside.
I bottle my emotions up.
my bad.
i don’t like to, i’m just too afraid not too. i don’t trust people with my innerself (easily). and i’m just stuck in this position of trying to find someone i feel comfortable with to really open up and empty everything out.
i’ve been told i don’t know when to stop.
it’s true.
i don’t.
i get ahead of myself and hurry things along and make hasty decisions usually based on absolutely nothing but a lack of time for things to happen how they normally would.
very very few of you actually know who i am on the inside. but if you think i’m quiet. you are deceived. i’m not. i just refuse to let it out.
my bad.
i just don’t trust you, though i want to.
badly.