I know i tend to write in a huge void of detail filled with vagueness. I’m shy sorry. It’s really hard for me to open a window into my personal thoughts and feelings and such. I’m not really an open person obviously for those of you who know me.
Yes Eric, i wish you knew more about what’s going on in my life here at school. but for me, this is hardly the place for it. And i know you’re really busy now with you back at school, and i’ve love to hear about that from you.
To you others who read and wonder, wishing i wouldn’t be so vague, spouting about random crap that doesn’t make any sense but to me. This is me wanting to tell you what is going on in my life. but I’d love to on a more personal, one on one basis. though there is physical distance.
I guess what i’m trying to say is this: I miss you. I miss having a personal connection with you. And i honestly hope to hear from you soon.
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There are few places i feel comfortable being myself. and now it’s as if i’m losing one of those places. I’m still here.. i don’t want to lose it. It doesn’t feel like a place i can still call home. It seems to evaporate when I’m not around. And i can’t be around that often. but isn’t it understandable?
But i do feel like i’m gaining another. i feel comfortable here. happy here. last year i didn’t, but that helped very slowly build me a foundation, and this year i’m really building on that. 
is it setting or rising?
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It has been a while. I’ve missed you to be honest. Lately, I’ve been finding myself looking your way and seeing it’s been so long, yet I sit there and do nothing. No attempt to say hello, not even a tap on your shoulder. Just a thoughtful look and then I walk away…
‘I have other things to do’ ‘I never can say what I want’ ‘I just can’t put words to my thoughts’ ‘I’m just too busy’
My summer is finished. All there is left is a thought of ‘I had a good summer’ and/or ‘I wish I would have done more/things differently’
I don’t want to miss out, don’t take your time. Don’t wait for a good time to do it, it’ll never happen.
I’m all moved in, classes start the day after tomorrow. One more day of band camp. It’s good to see you again, I’ve missed you.
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