I know i tend to write in a huge void of detail filled with vagueness. I’m shy sorry. It’s really hard for me to open a window into my personal thoughts and feelings and such. I’m not really an open person obviously for those of you who know me.
Yes Eric, i wish you knew more about what’s going on in my life here at school. but for me, this is hardly the place for it. And i know you’re really busy now with you back at school, and i’ve love to hear about that from you.
To you others who read and wonder, wishing i wouldn’t be so vague, spouting about random crap that doesn’t make any sense but to me. This is me wanting to tell you what is going on in my life. but I’d love to on a more personal, one on one basis. though there is physical distance.
I guess what i’m trying to say is this: I miss you. I miss having a personal connection with you. And i honestly hope to hear from you soon.
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There are few places i feel comfortable being myself. and now it’s as if i’m losing one of those places. I’m still here.. i don’t want to lose it. It doesn’t feel like a place i can still call home. It seems to evaporate when I’m not around. And i can’t be around that often. but isn’t it understandable?
But i do feel like i’m gaining another. i feel comfortable here. happy here. last year i didn’t, but that helped very slowly build me a foundation, and this year i’m really building on that. 
is it setting or rising?
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It has been a while. I’ve missed you to be honest. Lately, I’ve been finding myself looking your way and seeing it’s been so long, yet I sit there and do nothing. No attempt to say hello, not even a tap on your shoulder. Just a thoughtful look and then I walk away…
‘I have other things to do’ ‘I never can say what I want’ ‘I just can’t put words to my thoughts’ ‘I’m just too busy’
My summer is finished. All there is left is a thought of ‘I had a good summer’ and/or ‘I wish I would have done more/things differently’
I don’t want to miss out, don’t take your time. Don’t wait for a good time to do it, it’ll never happen.
I’m all moved in, classes start the day after tomorrow. One more day of band camp. It’s good to see you again, I’ve missed you.
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Over the Fourth of July, i Finally made it up north.. and i had an absolutely amazing time. Everyday i spent either wakeboarding and other various water sport activities (NOT tubing though) or on the beach or hanging out downtown. so much fun. i can’t wait to do it again. I’m pretty sure i’ll be going back the week before i go to school but i don’t know who all else will be up there. so i may have to go it alone. but i think i’m ok with that.
As far as my job situation, I’m sticking it out the last week and a half or 2 until i’m working for Nathan for a week to a week and a half. So i’m just going to deal with my incompetent boss for just that little while longer. I can’t wait to be done. I think that the quality of my summer is going to go up once that happens. WEEKENDS OFF!! haha yeah, that hasn’t happened all summer. AND evenings off pretty much. wow. which also really excites me about being a teacher. work during the day on weekdays AND i have the holidays and summers off. amazing stuff right there. That’s all for now.
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Well the summer is moving along at a pace that is building speed. It’s already nearing the end of June. It sure goes quick. I may need to look for a second or replacement job. The current HoJo is keeping the hours down. I can’t have that. This whole college debt thing and the Boston road trip (maybe) But I’ll keep my fingers crossed. Things will happen if they’re meant to. That’s not to say that I shouldn’t work for things. I’m looking forward to the Craft house coming up here shortly. It’s always good to spend time with friends. I know I’ll certainly miss them all so much when I go back to school.. in less than 2 months. It’s coming fast. I’m looking forward to it and not at the same time. I miss marching band. I know, I know, I’m a huge nerd but I enjoy it so much. I’m staffing at DeWitt band camp again this year. I hope that I’m given more responsibility. I really want to take charge of things that I can and do a good job. I want to be The Guy. That’s why I’m going to school I guess. I had better work hard this year. I don’t want to waste my time. .. again.
It looks like I won’t be able to make it south to visit the brother and other family. Hopefully for Christmas. At least I may make it up north shortly for a couple days though.
I need new music to listen to badly. I want to take more pictures of the fun things that I go out and do as well, I just hate carrying a camera around. I want to have a party or some sort of celebration for no reason. bon fire, or to a bar or something exciting with plenty of people and good times. Anyone interested? let’s do this.
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I think I’m going to try to title my posts like Scrubs titles it’s episodes. Of course have it be relevant at least somewhat.
So as i walked into Sacred Heart this morning…
I have a great supporting cast. Each are stars in this little show of mine in their own right. In some episodes, they easily outshine me too. (not a bad thing by ANYmeans. I’m not much of a star quality kind of person anyway.) So to my supporting cast, I thank you. There is only one show out there ever that could still be a sweet show without a supporting cast; and that’s Walker Texas Ranger. Chuck Norris is just that Chuck Norris-y (there are no mortal words that can describe him)
I feel like I’m in a TV episode sometimes, though I’m waiting for something to happen. … hmm More like WANTING something to happen. .. something good. you know the episode. haha *sigh* I wish.
I’m happy though =P
Buhbuh babababa ba baaaaaaahhh
Buhbuh babababa ba Baaaaahh. (anyone?)
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It made me do exactly what you said. i look inward, and i get scared. i wish i had more courage. there’s a reason i’m drawn towards independent people; I wish I was one more. I do feel i know who I am, and those close to me know at least most of me.
one part of me just wants to tell you everything
one part just needs the quiet
Yet i choose the latter
I’m still am generally happy and content though, don’t get me wrong there.
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I’m forcing myself to write a post. but i’m going to bed, so i’ll write this, then rewrite it soon!
much love
-I have it on authority that we are both alive and well
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Yes, as the Oz man speaketh, this young lad will be coming home Wednesday next week. Another summer at home.
Oh transitioning from living on your own back into one’s parent’s house.. how I love thee. =D
It shouldn’t be too bad. My parents are pretty cool *coughteresaiknowwhatyou’regoingtosaycough* but yeah, i look forward to seeing everybody. you should drop me a line so we can have a get together/party/gala event. this semester has gone pretty well. and i also got out more and more some more friends. i think next year will be a pretty good year too. though i wish for more visitors from people *cough* =D but i know we all lead very busy lives. but i do miss you all and look forward to seeing you!
To those who read this that i’ve met at EMU, I didn’t know you read this. so Hello! and welcome to my blog! we’ll see each other soon enough, i do plan on making a couple trips back to town and visiting. good times to be had.
Cheese is still awesome.
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